ME and girls

i suck with girls.... i am the only one who knows that..^^lol!

anyway... i had this one GF when i was 16 or so. She was innocent...not now though...at least according to what i heard. i mean we broke up..sort fo gradually...

the thing is though we were in that relationship i never asked her o0ut..nor did she..

a friend got us together....isn't that great?/
anyway...

we weren't in so deep relation ship///the furthest we went as far as pysical contact is conern was a peck opn the lips.^^ i know that just sucks...

and now i find it hard to even talk to girls...i feel so timid..i guess...i can't look at their eys and can't talk for long.. nothing interesting ever comes out of my mouth....

and i jsut saw an amzing girl just infromt of me in the library...but she was in company of another guy.. seems like they were siblings.. but that's just my hope...

doesn't matter is they are in love becuz i know. i mena i always know when i see a gril i lke i'll never get her....^^  and now i am so used to the feeling i just feel funny///

hah~~~ but honestly it's really cold...lone;y...boring...^^

i shud stop sympathising me self but...

anyway will keep it short..!!!

GOD?!?!?!?!!!!!???!!!???!

yep
another video..
this time on religion....muslim specific.
and it sucked. the video was good, but the content sucked.
Disgusting muslims. they are no different from the Nazis. They are sick and yuck!
they have no sense, they are evil.
That's with all the religiond. Religion just simply means: evil, control, division, selfishness, mental drug, death

therefor basically means: a huge disgusting stinking nonsense rotten :

now people, it's time our race actually start THINKING! and not just listen with out reasoning.

damn..how stupid can we get.

i am talking to myself to much or rather writting to mysel too much. this is wierd.

but i don't mind. but i think this is crazy.

anyway,..

uh i guess JP...Let's get realistic!

Holy....damn...

Yo~Ho~~
ok...nothing happened today..lol!
it was my birthday day before yesterday, so many people wished me....i never imagined so many people would
but anyway...it was nice we went out for dinner and had steak...It was amazing....

last night i saw a few videos on you tube...very disturbing ones. On plastic surgery, tumor, deformity, and stuff like that. I realized what kind of a mad world i live in, and also that the world isn't always beautiful. People are obsessed with looks; so obsessed that it wouldn't be an exaggeration to label such obsession as mental problem.
They go for unnecessary surgery, such as breast augmentation, or buttocks augmentation, nose surgery, etc.
It's so gross to look at the surgery. It's really very sick. the most disturbing one was where the mothers allow or impose cosmetic surgery on really young children. Children just the age of five, seven, and many many teens do it.
17 year old and she wants to do breast implant. WTF!>?!?!?!?!
parents allow it...it is crazy.

It is human nature to want to look good, becuase it is a way of attracting the opposite gender or express oneself, but artificially reshaping the face to look super beautiful isn't a very good idea. It's overboard, waste of money, time and life.

One more thing is the negative affects of the surgery. plastic surgery isn't always successful. And when it goes bad,..it goes real bad. Your life is screwed. I mean imagine it like this,,.. 8 inches long lips!!!!, swollen face,..deformed face, turns you into a monster. People regret it but,.. they can't go back.

anyway,...the other type of video i saw was on tumor. Very unusual type of tumors. A Chinese man with at least20 ~ 30 kg of tumor on the face....it was very disturbing and sad at the same time. He removed 20 kgs of tumor and will continue to remove as much as possible but it will be sometime before he is ok.

And anther case of tumor. this was a lady with tumor on the stomach. The tumor was so fucking huge!! its weight was 300 pounds!!! Holy shit right?
It was so huge that if she lies down straight the tumor would crush her. so she had to lie down side ways during the surgery. Luckily the tumor was benign and the tumor was safely removed in one piece.

Last but not the least. On deformaty. mostly on twins. so this baby like, had 8 luimbs. turned out that the other four was the limb of his twin only the twin wasn't alive...as in no head but the body was sort of stuck on the baby like a parasite. it was a risky surgery but i don't know if the surgery was successful.

next was two head one body. literally. so they think differently but have only one body.so.
I mean they or...uh... but this case wasn't one of those sad ones. they looked happy.
so... i guess that was good.


after watching all these videos i wondered, life really is crazy. why do things like this have to happen. Humans probably brought it on themselves, but then we should try find ways to prevent tumor rather than finding better and better ways to cut the tumor off. Cut the root then everything will be ok. But no one watns to compromise.
they want to live with all the poison, but don't want tumor,....what rot...

that's what i mean by greed. You don't want to stop eating ten buckets of ice cream everyday, but you don't wanna get leukemia.. big dreams...

anyway watch out....life is crazy...and don't fall for all these crap of you did to be beautiful to live a good life.
that's crap. they are feeding shit into your brain.....

WTeff...

Right...
So just another creep.
I nobody reads my posts...it's actually more comforting and what i prefer.
becomes like an online diary for me.
but just in case somebody unkind reads my posts containing very personal information, i shall be cautious.
i am bored.
sleepy.
low energy.
no motivation.
no goal.
hopeless.
yet expected a lot from.
as i said WTeff..

>..<

i don't wanna go home today.
but i have to rite?
shit.
i wanna freak out for just one day. been so long since i did that.
not so long.. but long.
i have no one to freak out with anyway because i don't know anyone in this city or in fact the entire damned country!

2 months remaining for my exam(SAT).
I hardly get 1700 in total.
i have to get 2000+. isn't that great?
Exams centers in bangkok are full so have to go somewhere else ..
may be phuket.
I thought i'd ask one of my class mates to go there if they were also going ..
but none of them had registered yet so don't know..
probably i'll have to go all by myself. >..<
And that's that.

My dad gave me his camera. He is purchasing a new one..
i like my camera.. i have been taking pictures. a lot of them.
not all are good but over all not too ugly.^^

guess that's it for now... ^^

ok... news...Ubuntu11.04 Vs Mac OSx Lion

Mac has announced their new O.S- OSx Lion.

I don't know if you are comfortable with another OS called Joli cloud.
It's a specialised OS for Netbooks. It's pretty awesome. Nice clean desktop.
It sort of remind you of the Ipad. The only thing is that the OS is Internet dependent and based on Ubuntu Operating System.

The OSx Lion introduced by Apple very recently is sort of like Joli cloud. The desktop environment is very similar. of course much better speed and compatibility than the Joli cloud. i am not very sure about the internet dependent thing.

As for Ubuntu 11.04 its release is recent..though not as recent as the Lion. I guess it's been about a month or so. I personally love Ubuntu. I love the desktop environment, the graphics, all the features, speed(booting speed, etc) and it's open source that means it's free. It's an amazing OS.. much better than Windows.
And as great as Mac OSs. Ubuntu allows the user to alter and set system the way you want it. You can change so many things you have never imagined you could in Windows or even in Mac OS. It's amazing. you can change themes, icons, screen saver, font, very very easily, but these changes are also possible in other OSs..windows etc.

But here's what you can't do with Windows,, you can customize the theme in which ever way you want. You can change login screen background very easily.. anything you want. you can have several work spaces. you can switch between them in cube, cylinder sphere or just flat rectangle.
the windows also go wobbly. it's really fun. you can make it rain on the desktop.
And if you know the system language then you can alter the OS in any damn way you like.

When you want to download some softwares and install them you don't have to go through all the pain in the ass process that you would od in windows. there are codes. copy paste them in terminal it will download and install automatically without the browser open.^^ and also there are thousands of application freely availabe. Good quality apps. there apps which you can buy like..photoshop etc.

so ya know just download it! try it! it's beautiful!!
www.ubuntu.com

Ok... people grab them papers!!!

i got these from some website... i love them...
if you do too.. just grab'em!!!^^ 

hello.. i am just wanting to talk about my life

i am 19 year old guy. i recently quit school and working my ass off to study alone.

planning to take SAT but i am very worried.

i have parents who aren't exactly open minded. so i get stressed out a lot. though i try to put up with them..sometimes i am not able to bear it. i am the kind of guy who cannot keep things inside. i can not ignore things that are wrong, such as being uselessly orthodox, violating somebody's rights.

my dad says i can not lock my door because i am student and i am studying.

he doesn't approve of me having friends of either sex because he thinks i'll be distracted. i have a step mom who recently got into my e mail account and saw everything and some plan got screwed. she gets angry with me putting up funny pictures of myself on facebook. she is so third world.

plus the school i just quit from was also screwed up. i didn't like that school. full of bad memories. don;t even wanna talk about.^^

so what's the solution, i try to go as crazy as i can get...

like this....

ok something's wrong with the link so i can't put the pics up ^^ sorry....